2005-10-15T22:36:00.000-07:00

i'm back again. even though i do not fully endorse the idea of blogging. it's an airheaded attempth to make my fustrations known indirectly, in my own unprivate space. to think of it, it's a pretty nice and mellow way of telling someone she suck, and is in a sense kinda beautiful coz the person would have to slowly try to find your blog (i must admit, the process excites me...), read and analyse it, and finally, agonize over the fact that the entire would be able to read it, and then, if the person is petty enough, she can of course, in the privacy of her own space, slander and insult you back. oh what an awfully joyous process... agonizing and paainful, yet full of beautiful mystery. (cheers man, and woman) blogging is afterall a petty cowardy process which i secretly and only partially endorse...
firstly, let me explain the situation to you: the elected exco made us stay back after school to discuss what we'll be doing for open day. ideas flowed, the members voted, an idea was borned... an idea, we were all supposed to work on. but because of undesired time constraints, the idea had to be changed. lo ho and beho, while i am able to understand the rationale behind the change, the exco should have that bit of courtesy to inform us. oh ya, to their "credit", they did, but it was to test out their new idea, conceived and hatched by the exco themselves. great. democracy!
1) don't waste the members' time if you want to make your own bloody decision,
2)don't your have the courtesy to at least inform them of the change and not expect them to fully endorse that change after you've mad the damn decision... it's like how the govt. has been asking for the people's take on the casino, and lo ho and beho, before the decision has been officially made, GV has already submitted their proposal. what's the use??? if your want to make the decision urself, forget it, dun bother taking votes etc. democracy? you must be crazy... and the very reason why i decided not to pull out as parent usher, which i really wanted to because i'm not exactly this pro-nj person, is becoz i wanted to find an excuse to not be part of the art crap. of course, i was too enticed by the free flow of drinks and candy floss la... tt's secondary.

EXpOSURE=EXcO(thing4)sure! this is the one major thing i'm really pissed abt!!! more than the whatever open-house thingy since i don't really care abt nj. i was really really truely excited over this whole exhibition thingy, to the extent of inviting all my dear friends and family to the exhibition even before i received the invitation cards to give out. by thursday, i had completely no idea exactly what time it'll be on, and i couldn't tell those pple i "invited" the texact time, so i had no choice but to apologize and ask them not to come... on friday, when i saw those little invitation in this exco girl's file, did i realise it was at 6pm. 1) why wasn't i given the invitation cards 2) why didn't they disseminate the info out properly so tt NORMAL members, meaning non-exco pple, will be aware of the time!!! it isn't very nice inviting pple, then asking them not to turn up, and it is utter disrespect to not inform a fellow member who has her works up there of the time and stuff like tt. tt's perhaps what really pissed me off abt the exco since they are in charged!!!!!!! elected to serve themselves!!! hahaha... what fools! honestly, i'm extremely hurt and upset over this, not just pissed!!!!!! secondly, it wasn't as though i didn't want to help or anything like tt on thursday. i even wanted to decline the soccer outing so i could help, and even bothered to ask mr chia if he need my help, stating tt i can help, preferably in the mornings so t i can still go out with the soccer girls. then, no one informed me of when my help was needed, so i took it as though it wasn't needed....... haha. "we are one big happy family"... my foot! fuck off la bitch. your care abt urselves ONLY. the exco's a small happy family because it's able to exploit and rule. yes, i understand the exco's busy, open day plus art exhibition. so? is tt a valid excuse for such a damn disgusting hurtful behaviour????????? what i really cannot stand is the fact that she actually snitched on me. "low-down rat"!!!!! yes. what right does he have to do so. i'm pissed extremely pissed with that. i can't believed she actually did it to me. to hell with her..... what does she know and understan? oh, that the exco is perfect and faultless, that i'm a little punk, a troublemaker, refusing to come under the iron fist of the exco... man, i dun have to be pap to be a singaporean. i am a proud and loyal singaporean! Princes may rule but paupers reign... she doesn't even understand how i'm trying to change mr chia's impression of me, how i'm striving to be tt good art girl... thanks man. you totally rawk!!! i'm made to be this person who can't care abt art club and what not... hello... if i couldn't care, i wouldn't even have turned up in the artroom, and i was already planning to go even b4 mr chia called me!!!!!!! fuck off la bitch! and, i cut my third right finger, it's a 6.3cm cut and the wound won't close... heh, and i even bothered to bring drinks up to the hall for them, when i'm all hot and sweaty..........!!! tarnish my reputation just like tt. idiot la! i'm pissed...really pissed

underbitch